Update

Thanks, Meenakshi, I appreciate your comment and your blog of today. I would say there's change and there's change. I do not feel that I am “going through a shift,” or “in a different space.” My utter Beingness ceased to exist, and was/is re-formed. There is a discontinuity in identity itself. I am a different representative expression of Beingness. There are some similarities to who I was, but to the depth and breadth of the (paradoxically) Infinite Self, the difference is what I am most aware of at this time.

Also, when you shift bio-electrically, and bio-chemically, “you” becomes almost a moot point.

Thanks for the opportunity to express more of this matter. I said to a Friend, this is not a satori, not an experience. This is the full extent of my Beingness reworked as a different singularity of Beingness. I don't know how else to begin to convey the radicalness of it all. I've been through shifts before. This ain't one.
 
Ah, a further way to convey: The very texture and flavor of my moment-to-moment awareness—including body awareness, dreamspace, astral self, etc. etc. it's all different now.

Thank you for your participation in your way, Albert. Much appreciated!!!!

thank you, Siona, your response makes MY heart sing!!!!

Since I am not likely to be burned at the stake again for writing, you can be assured nothing short of that would stop me!!!! LOL!!!! Writing is the same as breathing, to me…..

And a current update: The integration/unfoldment process continues daily, at a comfortable pace but quite distinctly. I feel more different from my old self, every day. And of course happier, to single out one aspect of many changes…..

This blog topic continues here.

I am honored, delighted, and enriched by everyone's comments.

~KES, I would say that also underneath pain is always joy, as well. And thanks to you I have the perfect picture to display that “dance” feeling that is becoming stronger every day now. Dancing with the Infinite All is a pretty awesome dance!!!!

Alan, yeah, the acceleration is accelerating!! And do you mean you'll be in Seattle???????  How special would THAT be!!!!!!!

Deb, Thank you for your own sharing, and your empathetic feeling-into what I experienced. I don't think I have any useful insights about YOUR experience. I do know that most astral-plane emotions have that “Being” quality to them, and that when people have episodes of terror it is often what is called psychic attack. Along with those, one feels absolutely drained of life energy. I think the context, the setting, the meaning, the purpose of my terror was probably very different from yours. But I don't really know. But just the memory of having lived through that, must be strengthening, for you!!!!

And I hope I write more about the other aspects of what I went through, because a lot were and are marvelous. I don't want anyone to get the impression that terror was even a major theme; it wasn't. I just got evoked by running across that other post about the subject, on ii pod.

Today I added a comment about terror to the Further Update blog entry, and am copy-pasting to here this elaboration about the transformation, that I posted in a pod:

I think you might like to know that one of the effects of the transformation I and others -probably including you - are going through right now, one of the weird side-effects, if you will, is that we are finding ourselves being more blunt, more direct, less tactful, less diplomatic, a bit more truthful and even confrontational, though not attacking. And maybe even irritable and impatient.

I see this as an expression of the Innocent archetype, and I don't see it as negative at all, but some of us super-tactful types are having to breathe a little extra deeply as we find this new style of behavior pouring forth from us, almost against our will. It is one of the expressions of our new higher Selves, and it will blend, mellow, harmonize, integrate to the point we are comfortable with it, as the days go on.

And I wouldn't assume the brain fuzziness is all pain meds. We are also moving from the smaller mind to the Larger Mind, and smaller mind is playing less and less of a role in our daily awareness, and that can be experienced as difficulty concentrating, because we are not used to functioning with a RELAXED AWARENESS. Let the eyes relax, let the brain relax, let the attention relax. We can trust it.

Well, another post on the same subject:

Someone (Do you want me to link or credit you?) said:

 I felt as if I had simply spewed out my earlier posting, which felt uncharacteristically [emphasis added] provocative or even arrogant, afterwards.

I replied:

Sounds as if you are experiencing it too !!!!!  I pereceive this “it” to be a pattern, and I believe it to be worldwide, a wave of vibration-increasing energy going through the planet to uplift anyone willing to be uplifted.

I know this new kind of behavior doesn't FEEL like upliftedness, but I believe it will mellow us into more honest and truthful people, more expressive of our own truth, and that we can still feel safe among others who are also the same kinds of people !!!!!  A bit less fearful of others' reactions to our spontaneous expressions of who we are at the moment, even though later we might wish we could edit the past !!!!! A bit more tolerant of others as they express their momentary truth.

As long as there is no real hostility, which would be shadow to be dealt with, let's be more real, more authentic. That's closer to the truth than striving to be always sweetness and light, though I am not attributing that to you, no way !!!! LOL !!!!

I think there is a beneficial synergy between vulnerability/openness/spontaneity and tolerance/benevolence/acceptance. I think we are experiencing a leap forward on that matter.

Blessings, OM Bastet

Yes, Evo, for me not just comfort in knowing I am not the only one. Also a bit of reassurance that I am “on schedule,” and a great reassurance that what I call The Vision is in charge of the Big Picture and operating well across the planet.

Ya know, I am NOT easily weirded out, not at all, but this thing about being more blunt starting in February has me weirded out, or more accurately, really boggled. I mean, I can see how it makes sense, but whodathunk!!!! But it is an absolutely noticeable prominent change in 6 of us now here in my circle of active friends. (Jeremiah weighs in on a comment in the co-blog to this one, Further Update.) Most of whom thought it was only them getting more rude !!!! :))) So I reassured some is it not backsliding into ego, even though that is our first impression. Of course, we get to choose the fine-tuning. None of us want to be abrasive or seemingly rude or hostile. But ultimately in complete surrender I think we let go of our complete unwillingness to do that. Spirit knows what is best for raising the consciousness of the person we are interacting with. But I plan to stay generally unwilling to come across as rude or angry or hostile or attacking. Then again, anyone can choose to take offense at just about anything, eh?



And yeah Alan the truth is the truth, but not always the most effective communication of it to our listener. But what's happening is that our Larger Selves know what the most effective form of communicating is at that moment, and for many of us, it appears to be much less tactful and diplomatic and indirect that we used to believe was necessary or appropriate or optimal !!!!!!!

If anyone reads this blog and comments, be sure to read the co-blog on the same topic, one entry later, called Further Update. Gaia site link function is down right now, so I might not be able to create that as a link.

oooh, how great you could FEEEL it from my words. I am pleased.

Yeah, I felt like a skinless snake must feel, yeah. I have been told that caterpillars turn to a gooey blob inside the chysalis, like a lump of pudding, no structure, and then reform as a butterfly. Back practically to the Nothingness. I was almost that dysfunctional, but not quite.

Another insight about the bluntness issue mentioned above: It appears to focus primarily on other people who are being silly or needlessly dense or indirect. One person talks about not tolerating fools well, another talks about impatience with games-playing, and as I observe the pattern across a bunch of people, including myself, it seems to have that focus or specificity, but not be limited to that particular, either.
 
Here's an example: I was at a meeting last night. One lady walks in half an hour late. Soon she chimes into the discussion something like “Blah blah blah point, or maybe you mentioned that earlier.” And since her point was pretty elementary and obvious re the topic under discussion, I found myself blurting out   “Yes, before you got here.” Not in the friendliest of tones of voice, either. Like, Give me a break lady, you walk in very late, and are not observant about where this discussion is.

Ideally, from the perspective of the old me, I would have kept my mouth shut. But as this remark was really coming from my spirit and not my ego, I have to trust that my spirit knows something about her I don't, and that what I did was somehow consciousness-expanding for her, even in the way I did it. Scary to trust !!!!!!!